Waiting

I have been thinking about how I need to post. Waiting to update. The kids keep me busy (like every other Mom). Since we have bought the house I feel like I have been committed to Louisville, so that takes time to making new friends ect,. Happy to feel more at home here, I'm busy with the kids and connecting with friends, but at that same time I'm sad to not be by family. My heart aches to not be in Chicago suburbs, Grand Rapids, or Wisconsin. Even Alabama where I had a wonderful group of girlfriends. While my days are never unoccupied, at times I feel crazy alone. And still I wonder. For what? This was by far not my plan but I have to trust that God has a way bigger one. Heart aching and soul searching, but not lost because my kids are precious reminders of His way to make me grow in everything most importantly love.