Hump Day was a UGH Day

Wednesday was just a doozie. I don't like to complain, but I'm not perfect and it was just one of those days.

• Jack wakes up at 5am.
• Drive Mike to work at 6:30am and don't get home until 8:30am because of a traffic.
• Jack falls asleep on the Ross Bridge Parkway. 
• I try to transfer him to his crib he wakes up and figures that was nap enough.
• Around 10:30am try for a nap again and the tornado sirens go off. No nap taken. 
• Jack is grumpy because he is tired and I can't get ANYTHING done. 
• Noonish, try for a nap and he is just not having it. 

At this point I just kind of give up on the day. My expectations of getting anything done is thrown out the window and I just play with grumpy Jack. We bundle up and go for a long walk. I've been walking everyday but it was windy and Jack still has little sniffles, but it was either walk or crack open a bottle of red wine.

The long walk was a healthier alternative:) 

Finally at 4pm Jack goes down for his nap! Phew. I get some laundry done, where I find little "treasures" put in there by my little one. Jack is very into hiding things like a little squirrel.  Mike gets home and we go to Costco. Ahh the night gets better. 

As a stay at home, the truth is some days are hard and extremely frustrating. While in the car Wednesday morning,  unaware of the day ahead of me,  I actually looked back at Jack and just smiled at the fact I got to spend all day with him. Watching him grow and learn is a blessing. Having a family and staying home has always been my dream. I love to cook, clean, play, and plan activities with Jack. I'm not even lying that I like to do those thing, I really do. However, days when Jack is a whiny butt and I can't accomplish anything...it stresses me out so much and I feel like I am just worthless.

At times I wish I could go back to work. Be good at something and actually get to accomplish tasks. Make the extra money so that when we have to buy a new car it doesn't stress me out so much! When I worked we never worried about these things. My income was the "fun" money that we just saved, vacationed with, or made our big purchases with. Not bringing home any money is a huge adjustment even when your financially sound. 

So there it is. I'm not perfect. I get stressed and worried when I shouldn't. But God is good. Right now in Bible Study we are doing the book of Joshua and I am learning so much. Most importantly, not to worry. Funny how things are planned out for me! Just last week when life was looking perfect and fabulous, I for some reason looked up these verses and wrote them down:

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"

Matthew 6:25-27

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Matthew 11:28-30

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.

Seek his will in all you do, 

and he will show you which path to take."

Proverbs 3:5-6 

"An anxious heart weighs a man down, but a kind word cheer's him up."

Proverbs 12:25

Just the comfort I needed THIS WEEK! I know staying at home right now is what I am meant to do, God has taken care of all of our needs. "Needs" I must remind myself are much different than "Wants". It is the little things, like Mike is getting to borrow a truck from someone at work so we don't have to rush into our big purchase. I have to trust in God's plan, be thankful for everything our family has been given, and not burden Mike or my family with useless worry. God doesn't say that life and days won't be hard, but He does promise that we can find rest in Him.  And as a new Mom I know that rest is a key to happiness and enjoying the day and in a bigger picture this earthly life! 

Of course last night Jack was being a goof ball and made me fall madly in love with him all over again, making me forget all about the hair pulling day! He was talking with his mouth full of milk and letting it pour out. Oh my little Bear...